cuddlybear22's Blog

I know you meant it
when you said hello
pero
I don't think you meant it
when you said goodbye
In all the time we spent.
Like when we went
to the bay
or lake
or whatever you would
say
it was as if
I just couldn't betray
how strong the love was.
And how I just couldn't obey 
you
when you said good-bye. 
In all the time spent
I couldn't contain the emotion inside
and then
there you were
ready for goodbye.

As time goes by
so does our bond
yet I don't think we ever had
a true solid bond
more like a
intermolecular attractive force
where theres only
a temporary or induce
dipole invole
yet this one may last
a hour - a day - a minute,
or
even 22 days, 21 hours
and
10minutes with two seconds involved
but I want you to know
that  at that day, that hour,
that min, or that second
I treasure our force
you showed me the truth
and harsh reality that
not many
shall get to see
or understand.
So,mom,
let the force be with you.
with us.

You are...
I'm Speechless
My heart gets bigger and bigger 
with you around.
And maybe you are
just a boy that will stay
and then leave
but I'll like to hope that you'll stay in one way
or another
where your smell will
somehow find its way to my place
and where our shades of darkness
will be chased away
and where our cries
our seen and heard
with eachother
and where our eyes
are met to  the end of life.
and where are souls will
be one
and then maybe then I could say
I love you.
But even now I'm not afraid to say
that
you may just be the one.


 

He's my Special K .
my Frosted Flakes
my boo, yet before we got together things were great.

The frist day we chilled was amazing. I honestly thought he was a cool ass guy. He was funny and sweet and cute and interesting. Everything he would say and comment on would be the same thing I would be thinking of as well.

At the time he was a stranger that somehow wasn't a stranger. Not even a friend or "buddy" like I was to him. I'm not sure what I consider him as ...maybe a "buddy" but honestly more like a unknown buddy that has something to releave and I only say that because I didn't know him well.
The day we chill was soo much fun and I wanted to spend the whole day with him but eventually I went home and he went home, but it was great.
Yes, he was my buddy, but I couldn't help but to think how close I got.
At the time I didn't really think about it, but looking back I realize how close it got.
Yes, he is younger but somehow that doesn't affect me as much as I thought it would. Maybe its because not only does he have so much in common with me, but also he has the same differencces of me and the same traits of my family.
<3
He's is the following and so much more:
artistic
amazing
awesome
astounding
astonishing
appetzing
bad ass kick
beautiful
believable
crazy
corny
cuddleable
cute
charming
clean ha
dreamy
dramatic
dopy
dazzling
engertic
fashionable   
funny
friendly
fondness inside that is filled with greatness
forgiving
goofy
good-outlook in life
gracious
handsome
handy
interesting
important
joker
kewl
krazy
kiky
likeable
marvellous
motivated
magical 
mysterious
mouthful of love
noisy
noteable
noble
nice
opposite of what I dislike in a guy
pretty lol...pretty eyes
precious
queen - jk lmao jk jk
striking
superb
splendid
star
sexy
special
spicy
satisfactory
real
rockstar
reasonable
rambunctious
recalcitrant -- at times haha jk..well hmmm maybe not ;)
terrfic
tasty
talented
unique
utmost
unreplaceablechl
uplifted
vally of love
wacky
x-treeme
zany
<3
<3
I'll fill in more as I think of more
..
abc i think i c u
..
and in this case I'm so happy I met this guy.
He makes my world come alive
And I'm not a girl typing for the heck of it . I just simply need to get it down on words. and this guy is amazing.
He makes me speechless.
And chances are if he's reading this he might think I'm crazy ...and no I'm not trying to think of Love..or the whole I love you to him because...what happens happens.
And if the time is right and all then I'll say it...but as for now i'm just happy that I got to meet this guy .

Well I want to write more and more and probably could too, but it 12:32am and I still need to take a shower and finish some homework and go to bed .

I just want the whole world to know -- that Blake Johnson you make me speechless.
wow.
You mean so much too me
and You give me Hope and courage and I hope you never leave my lfie.
Thanks boo for everything you have done.
Your the best and deserve the best.
Bless You
and I hope your having sweet dreams.
Know -- I'll always be there for you. Always and Forever.. haha that sounds corny ...lol.
Night love.
Sweet Dreams
<3 <3 <3
=)
sooo happy
lol thats my mood .